Maybe it came from the other person, maybe it is just my own problem. Well, the latter one may be my answer. Stupid me.
I don’t like to be emo, it is so uncool and make others avoiding you. Maybe not now, but if I keep doing so, then it will definitely happen. Even if it does happen, then I guess the problem is within me, not the other people. So, can I blame them? If my answer is yes, then I deserve a special spot in hell.
Fuck unhappiness, fuck the negative attitudes. I should kick their ass and send them back to the place they truly belong at… to be honest, I don’t know. Hell?
Have quite a nice chat with Korean guy today. That dude was so nice. I hate to admit it, but I do admire his positive attitude you know. When I told him about my problem, he just told me this - I should be myself. Be happy. Nice work Korean guy, your word inspired me, in some way. Ha ha.
“When I get sad, I stop being sad and be awesome instead. True story.” – Barney Stinson.
The quote immediately crossed through my mind and my brain was like, suddenly refreshed. Yes, why are you torturing yourself with those dark things while you can just put it down, and smile sincerely instead? Why you choose to be emo while you can just be, like positive instead? Are these things really hard to be done? I don’t think so, because it’s your own choice.
It’s my choice; it’s your choice, really. Nobody can construct your identity. You are your own product. You brand them yourself, you advertise them yourself, and you sell them yourself. In the process of building yourself, you will have two advisors, and you gotta choose one of their ideas. One is your inner angel, and the other one is your inner demon. They will try to influence you in many ways, but bear in mind that you are the director of yourself. You make the decision; you do the constructing.
You just be yourself.
Sometimes we search for one thing but discover another. Even though I didn’t find up the reason why I was quite emo-ish during Mr. D’s class today… I did find up something very important about myself… I’m awesome.
Please don’t be angry.
After I arrived here in my comfortable human nest, I went straight to my laptop and started typing as much as I can (Including the articles above.). I already stopped blogging sometimes ago. But since Cally signed up for a new blog just to accommodate our works, I was like, why not? It can be fun! And I decided to share my work with all of my JR course mates.
Compared to the other course mates, I think that my profession in English is only on the average level. I don’t know how to use fancy words such as Chester and I don’t know how to write in funny and interesting ways such as what Sook Kin did in “Death by Blogging”. (I’m a fan, actually.)
I may not look like it, but actually I’m fond of writing English article although I’m a Chinese Ed student Not that I don’t like the Chinese language, it’s just that I was unable to find passion in it. Whenever I got an idea, I wish to just jolt it down inside a paper rather than searching through 2000+ pages dictionary just to find a goddamned Chinese character. (To be honest, I hate it.)
As much as I like to write, I will only write when I got the feelings to do it. I just can’t make a good article without any godsend inspirations. Worse, I was like stopped writing since few months ago. Even if I found up a new idea, I just felt malas to write it down. After I came here, I felt a sense of emptiness inside my heart. Even though I found a bunch of good friends here, it still cannot fill up the empty space there. I need something else, which is writing. (and gf?)
I don’t know if anyone of you read my articles till this part, but if you did so, then I would like to say thank you. Please leave some comment to my work (no awesomeless), because this is what JRunited blog supposed to do right?
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